My husband thinks I’m beautiful, and that’s the way it should be.
Me? I straddle the electric fence of insecurity constantly. Sometimes I lean towards “Hey, I’m not so bad looking. Let’s go somewhere so you can show off your pretty wife.” Other times I dive headfirst into, “Oh my gosh. I’m so fat; how can I leave the house with all these rolls? I might as well permanently confine myself to the couch now because that’s obviously where my life is headed. Ugh!”
Oh and that’s not all. Here are other things my husband might hear from my lips on any given day:
- “Thanks for the hug, but please keep your hands off my back fat.”
- “This shirt makes me look like a runaway blimp! I have to go change!”
- “Would you love me more if i weren’t a whale?”
- “You’re so much cuter than I am! Why did you marry me?”
- “Seriously, you do realize you married pac-man, right? I’m totally round and eat everything in sight.”
And the list goes on and on. But no matter what I think about myself, he still thinks I’m a knockout. He thinks I’m the most beautiful woman he’s ever met. And that’s how it should be.
But I am not as I should be. After I wrote about my previous feelings of inadequacy earlier this week, I started thinking about these statements that I so casually make about myself and I’ve realized that this is just not how I should be. My warped perception of myself does not come from God. No way! I am His precious creation. He knit me together in my mother’s womb (Psalm 139) and I have absolutely no right to question or condemn the work of His hands. Just as my husband does, God thinks I am beautiful. He thinks I’m good just as He made me.
So I’ve made a decision. I am going to stop cursing myself with my words. Scripture tells us that there is power of life and death in the tongue (Proverbs 18). I am literally killing my own self-image with the things I say; I’m using my tongue to repeat the lies the devil whispers to me and in the process helping myself to believe them. I won’t do it anymore. It will be a challenge to control something that’s become so natural, but I’ve got to stop. Today.
If you’re in the same place, let’s stop believing what the enemy says about us. Let’s believe what God says. God says that through Christ we are holy and blameless in His sight, without blemish and free from accusation (Colossians 1.22). That’s how He sees us. He doesn’t look at us and see fat or ugly or scrawny or goofy. He just sees beautiful, unblemished creations. So let’s start praying we can see ourselves that way too. Let’s speak life and beauty instead of death and destruction. I’ll start:
“I am beautiful.”
In Love and Christ,